I was just looking at pictures of myself as a baby. Lily looks even more like me in person, I'm so excited! (Especially since Little Jack is seriously a "Little Jack!")

I'm sitting in my tiny 2 bedroom apartment and, as always, wishing for change. I keep thinking of that one Bright Eyes song that says,
-the worlds got me dizzy again, you'd think after 22 years I'd be used to the spin. But it only gets worse when I stay in one place, that' why I'm always pacing around or walking away.

How anti-Christian-stay-at-home-I'm-always-content-no-matter-what-mom is that?

Call me untraditional I guess- but I want - right now- to be designing something while watching my 2 crazy babies and getting my masters.  I want to be able to paint in crazy colors wherever I want. I want to be able to drill holes in the wall without getting in trouble. Restless I guess, always restless, always pacing around. Always waiting for my opportunity to create.